This is Me!

This is Me!

Sunday, October 3, 2010


Today was a much better day. I think I just had a meltdown yesterday. Talk to you guys later. I just thought you guys should know that I am doing better!!!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

I just don't know anymore...

  Okay guys I have a feeling this one might be a long one. I have a lot to get off my chest. So here it goes:

1. I think honestly I am depressed now. I have spent the last week and a half watching Veronica Mars. Seriously it has been my life. I lived, ate and breathed Veronica Mars. I was sucked into it's world and now I have no clue what to do next. It helped me through the last week so much.  It made me happy, and now that's it done I feel all alone again. I miss smiling and laughing.

2. College isn't really that bad, I actually had some fun today at the Homecoming Football game but I still don't feel that close to anyone here. I know I need to get out more and I am planning on working on that this week. Please don't lecture me on my unsocialness. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel so different since I have been at college. I don't think I do well being all by myself; having to start new. I think I need one or the other. I either need to live far away where it isn't possible for me to go home when I have a problem or live at home and commute. I wish i could say that I was the type of person that could just walk up to anyone and introduce myself. I go over it again and again in my mind thinking that, that is really me. And I think that is partially me just waiting to break out. I am just too scared to do it, and I don't know why. I want to be more outgoing I really do, I look up to people that can do that like: Veronica Mars, Dorothy Rachow, and Becca Guagliardo.

3. I am saying that I am in a rut and I need help. I would really appreciate your prayers. There is some other stuff that's on my mind but I feel that it is too personal to write it on here, so if you want to know then message me on facebook and I'll tell you what I can. Thanks for reading this. If you have gotten this far then I know you are a true friend. Thanks.

BTW: I would totally be your girlfriend Logan Echolls except you would have to be a christian.

Too bad you are a character in a show that has left me so depressed.